Oh my
gosh! I can’t believe it’s been 3 months since I’ve been on here. Bad Mommy!
And all my photos are gone!!!! What happened?!?!?! I’ve now tried to get the
pics back but I can’t remember which pics were where. Guess I’ll have to make
up for it in this post
So, an
update…
First
Matthew:
My Mr is
now almost 2 years and 4 months old. He is talking up a storm and can string
together 3 to 4 word sentences. We can understand him and he can finally make
his wishes known now. We have times where he goes back to his baby gibberish
but we understand him most of the time.
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| Deep in thought |
Potty
training went soooo well! It took him about a week to get the hang of the
potty. He made a few oopsies here and there but that was expected. The next
week, the crèche says that we need to
get rid of the potty now and move him to the big toilet, as that is what they’re using at the crèche and Mr doesn't want to stand and wee. It’s been 2 and a half months
now and I am a proud mommy of 1 fully potty trained little boy. He does all his
business in the toilet. Tells us before the time, and in all this time, he has
wet his bed about 4 times during the night. The only thing that gets to me a
little is something the DH taught him. If we’re all outside he won’t go inside to go potty. Mr pulls
his pants down and does his business right there where he’s standing. Need to
work on this one a bit.
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| Potty time |
Other
than that, he is doing well. They've moved him to the bigger class at the crèche. He’s picked up so much more now and I can see how good the older
children are for him.
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| My happy lil dude |
Me:
I've applied for an
internal position here at work and it’s been almost 3 weeks and I’m still
waiting on an answer from them. Holding thumbs as this is exactly what we need.
I’m struggling with the weight loss. I've tried the Paleo Reboot. I had every
intention of going through with it but finances honestly do not allow for it. I
can hardly afford a loaf of bread, never mind meats for the week and coconut
oil and almond flour. Hopefully I can get this job and we can go back to being
financially stable.
DH has been working
in Hermanus during the week and coming home weekends. It’s the 8th week
this week. This has been extremely hard for more than one reason. Firstly,
Matthew misses his dad and asks me every night when I go pick him up “Where
Daddy?” This breaks my heart. And weekends, DH can’t go anyway without him.
He’s obviously scared that if Daddy goes anywhere without him, he won’t see him
again. Being a single parent is hard but at least it’s only during the week.
I am extremely broody
at the moment, and on 8 April, after getting AF on the 5th, I told
DH that I was very sad that I had gotten AF because I wanted to be pregnant. He didn't take this very well. I understand that our finances is an issue right
now, but it’s not going to be like this forever. But that isn't why he was
upset. He then told me that he doesn't feel for me the way he used to anymore.
In other words, he fell out of love with me. He said that even though I told
him almost every day that I love him, he didn't feel like I showed it. It is
very hard hearing someone you love with all your heart tell you that they don’t
love you anymore. It’s been 4 weeks since this happened and even though I’m yet
to hear an “I love you”, we are still together and working on it. Please say a
little prayer for us that we can salvage our marriage.
Other than that,
things are good with me and my family. We have some issues but nothing we can’t
work on and fix.
Oh and I finally wrote about something that happened to me when I was younger. It is liberating to finally get it off my chest. But I'm struggling with whether to share it... Need to think about this.
